It's not that I don't have anything to feel bad about, but it's still strange to me, I haven't felt like this in a long time. I don't know what exactly it's due to, but something is super wrong with me, some kind of thing. Is it because of the lunar day, is it because I had to create a design from scratch, or a combination of both, plus the fact that things are getting harder and harder to get from a financial point of view. I usually have moments like that, but they literally last for a few minutes and pass. But today..., today it's hard for me to stay positive about anything.
Apparently, no matter how strong a person is, sometimes they lose heart and nothing can lift them up except their will. This takes me back many years, when I was filled with dark thoughts, anger, despair and malice. I remember how cruelly I punished my own soul, hating the whole world, and how hard it was to get out of that pit. I repeat to myself that everything is okay, that we will manage, but it's as if some devil is whispering in my ear "If only you could look at her, what's going on...".
Maybe I'm overworked, because since I started the blog I haven't stopped, I've been working on the site almost 24/7 and don't have time for anything else. Or am I making one of the biggest mistakes in my desire to succeed? I'm overloading myself and this is affecting my official work and my project (the blog, the forum and the lunar calendar). When I started working on the Universe, I had enthusiasm, desire and every day I did something new, I solved problems quickly, there was nothing that could stop me. And now, my muse is gone, I sit, stare at the pages in the blog, and nothing. Just an empty look and mind, nothing appears, nothing happens. And in general, I like to write and develop, to achieve successes, even if they are small.
I'll think about taking a short break in which I don't touch anything, to spend time on myself and my family, because I don't like the other option. I myself have advised friends and acquaintances not to overload themselves, and here I am, making this mistake myself, but lessons to learn, what to do!?
Apparently, no matter how strong a person is, sometimes they lose heart and nothing can lift them up except their will. This takes me back many years, when I was filled with dark thoughts, anger, despair and malice. I remember how cruelly I punished my own soul, hating the whole world, and how hard it was to get out of that pit. I repeat to myself that everything is okay, that we will manage, but it's as if some devil is whispering in my ear "If only you could look at her, what's going on...".
Maybe I'm overworked, because since I started the blog I haven't stopped, I've been working on the site almost 24/7 and don't have time for anything else. Or am I making one of the biggest mistakes in my desire to succeed? I'm overloading myself and this is affecting my official work and my project (the blog, the forum and the lunar calendar). When I started working on the Universe, I had enthusiasm, desire and every day I did something new, I solved problems quickly, there was nothing that could stop me. And now, my muse is gone, I sit, stare at the pages in the blog, and nothing. Just an empty look and mind, nothing appears, nothing happens. And in general, I like to write and develop, to achieve successes, even if they are small.
I'll think about taking a short break in which I don't touch anything, to spend time on myself and my family, because I don't like the other option. I myself have advised friends and acquaintances not to overload themselves, and here I am, making this mistake myself, but lessons to learn, what to do!?
